My Life Now...

Alhamdullilah..it been nearly 3 months, i worked at my ward. So far, i able to adapt to my work surrounding, sister already comfirmed my place..all i need is to hand over my checklist early next month..
definitely, my workplace is different from any general ward..work place is fast, pt will admit and discharge on the same day..i have learnt alot of procedure and many kind of surgical..but what i really hate is admitting pt gg for TOP(Terminating of Pregnancy)imaging terminating one life which not even exist in the world..TOP surgical not so bad but Medical TOP, i really pray hard that i wont be the one looking after the pt..not bcoz am heartless but i cant faced to see blood clot which actually a fetus that was already dead...sadly most of them gg for this procedure(TOP) is "my people"...either came alone or with their "husband"...
i believe whatever they do, there's always a reason behind it..some of them look remorseful while some not even a single regretfulness written on their face...imaging everyday about 3 to 4 cases admitted bcoz of this procedure..
My motto in life, "dont ever say bad things about other people although they have done the worse thing u ever image...instead look into your own life and on the things u need to improve..becoz i believe not everyone is perfect".

I believe my life now is more meaningful, speading most of my time at work, off day with family, bf and friendz and most importantly getting close myself with god..reciting Al-Quran make my life really peaceful and refrain me from doing any sinful things..i admit that last time my life was really chaostic..i was living with fear each day and it was so torturing..alhamdullilah i decided to be strong and make 1 decision which could even destroy my life if it goes strong...my prayes r answered by al-mighty and it goes smoothly as it planned...i still can remember during the begining days in my nursing life..i confessed to 1 of my classmate bout how much tortured i have gone through my life..then He said in a serious tone " Fad No matter how much advises that i given you..your life will remain the same unless you be strong and stand up for your action...Nobody can help you..only you can help yourself!"

My life now r much more peaceful..i really hope that my life partner can really accept who am now, and accept wat my past was liked...i want someone who is:
>religious and can guide me along
>respect his parent and my parent
>respect the things that i say forbidden
>have faith in my love and trust
>stable career and hardworking
>lovable and understanding

My Prince:
When i first accept him as my boyfriend..the reason are not bcoz:
> i love him
>he stayed in a private house
>he is someone who can buy the stuff that i want
>his family is wealth off
>he always fetch me from work

------but-----

bcoz of what he said to me:

"i will definetely prove that you are wrong (not all guys are devil). Come and hold my hands..let me lead you the right way slowly..i will ensure you that your life would b much more better than before..stop talking about your past to me becoz..i like you not becoz of who u r but i like u bcoz of who u r when u r with me Now!"

At first i dont really have confidence bout watever he say to me..
To me..the first 6 months in relationship usually a honeymoon period for all couples..all the sweetness...

Usually couples would show their true colours after the honeymoon period end..at most they would know their partner bad side by end of 6 months..

But Now, i believe the words that he said to me...his sincerity, careness towards me. he changes my lifestyle for good..as months goes by, my feelings for him is getting deeper and deeper..i feel that i want someone like him always be by my side..honest,truthful and sincere about relationship.

Now 1 yr and 6 months has past..i cant believe a relationship without the word love in the begining has grown with so much love and careness...and ...we would just take it slowly and at the same time work hard to stablize our career path and earn more income our future....

i believe in this "what is fated to be mine will always be mine"...

In Conclusion
>dont be afraid to fall in love again even if u have been hurts bcoz of love..
>be realistic bout who u want..
>does not mean that person have done something bad..that person wont change for life
>look into urself before u look at other person...
Lastly
>be greatful and treasure of what u have now bcoz u may feel regret later if u choose the wrong fish that u think it is better than the current want..

take care pple..gd nite!